here comes a i-hate-life post.

it's been a while since my ex girlfriend alice has felt like talking to me. now i know how it feels to have someone HATE you so much that they won't even say hi to you anymore.

i don't get it, i wait and wait and wait and nothing. maybe she despises me so much that she never wants to associate with me ever.

so i've thought about girls in the past (junior high, high school) that i've tried to ask out. the majority of them would never talk to me after rejecting me. it never bothered me. but now that alice, who actually DID say yes and date me for more than a year, refuses to talk to me, it completely sucks. it really lowers my self esteem. how am i supposed to go to job interviews or whatever when all i think about is "i wonder if alice eMailed me today, i better go home and check ASAP".

i'm starting to think that i really do need that job in Irvine. i'd move away from San Diego and end up living there for a while. it would probably make alice gleeful with joy if i were to leave.

*stops blogging and goes to check email*